Intentionally lowering my profile.

I used to be super-addicted to VH-1. Not that I don’t have, ahem, a guilty pleasure or two on there now, but I don’t really watch it on a regular basis like I did back in the late 90s. One show I could not get enough of was Behind the Music.

There were quite a few memorable moments on that show, but my favorite was the one in which The Captain and Tennille tried to explain why their popularity faded: “we intentionally lowered our profile.”

Uh-huh.

Anyway, that’s been one of my favorite lines since. While I doubt I’ll ever reach the heights of fame that C and T did, sometimes being so plugged in all the time gets overwhelming. Sometimes I don’t like it that so many people know so much about me.

I deleted my Twitter account earlier. Eek! I didn’t get on there for a few days, realized I could live without it, and decided to do so. It’s been a relief, I have to be honest. My brain had started, instead of just having thoughts, to actually automatically shape said thoughts into 140-character tweets. I’ve found it liberating to go back to just thinking.

Over-thinking, but it’s Sunday, so I won’t go into that.

Moving on, I know Twitter is one of those essentials if you want to be a “real” blogger, but I think not tweeting will actually help my blog. Maybe I’ll develop my thoughts more and write more often. Or maybe not. I’ve threatened, since the earliest days of my blog almost two years ago, to have a crazy fit of introversion and shut the whole thing down. I doubt I will.

I admit, though, to sometimes wishing I weren’t so chained to the computer. I unabashedly, unashamedly love the Internet. For an introvert, though, it can be kind of dangerous–I keep up with “in real life” friends on Facebook, usually more often than I actually see them. And many of my friends are online-only, or online friends who became “real” friends. So, I guess the flip side is that it’s good for an introvert in the way of finding friends and avoiding face-to-face awkwardness…but sometimes I miss face-to-face awkwardness.

Honestly? If today you offered me the Airstream in the valley under the condition that I’d have to return to journaling with a pen and paper and typing up other things with a typewriter, I’d totally do it.

So, yeah, I’ve definitely become a hermit lately, and now it appears that’s taking over the online thing, too. And I really am okay with it. I stay pretty tired, what with my current job. I like to be at home these days, taking care of what needs to be taken care of. Seems like there’s a lot to take care of lately.

Mainly I just need to take care of myself. I’m working on it.